I sit here completely given over to the other side, still awake when most people are fast asleep, comfy in their pairs of twos and within their duvets. I find it odd, that I finally do not know if I can handle the social scene, am I that much of an outcast? Am I really old, New York 40 year old women tell me I am not old, but that they are just the new 20's. Who to believe? Everyone around me? Or my inside gut?
Can this really be it for my young years?? My fantastic 20's over in 3 years?? I imagined when I first turned 18 that I would live for years being able to dance blindly into the morning, arms around my new best friend stepping out into the cold January morning to greet the new year. Now I find I want to hide in perhaps the year 2005 and wait for each new year to come out and greet me instead.
Where do I belong? Does anyone ever really belong?? Is anything ever staid, or is it constantly changing, only visible when we choose to let loose the bandana around the eyes. Whoever thought I would change this much in 1 year, 6 motnhs even. The single events that turn the tide to change.
Sigh, are the 20s the new 40s? Does society put too much pressure to succeed on the younger generations?? Is this why the drug rate is up, and depression is rampant among today's 20 year olds? Could in our 20s, we be too emotionally unprepared to handle success?? Could we be too immature to be happy with what some 40s would die to have??
Were we too spoiled, our lives too normal, too comfortable?? Do we not see what we have is fantastic, that we succeed and receive promotions and benefits so much younger and faster??
Perhaps, humans aren't meant to evolve too quickly. The last 100 years have been like nothing in recorded history. (That I know of at least.) Our learning curve has pretty much been a straight mile-high line in the air. 180 bloody degrees. I mean how old will my iPod be that I just got last month in a few months? So hey, maybe if society slowed down a bit, learned to smell the fucking roses, hey maybe we would all have time to celebrate, contemplate, and feel our happiness.
03 December 2009
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Haha! Sorry, the one line to stop and smell the f****** roses killed me. I imagine a New Yorker saying that to another.
ReplyDeleteThe most exciting part about life my dear friend is that we have no idea what our future holds and we have a lot of influence to make of it what we want. You can love your late 20's, all of your 30's, and your 40's if you want.
Think of our parents, you could be married with two little ones by now... and they would be seven or eight years old if we did as they. But just as their generation decided to do something different then of their parents'.
Our generation needs instant gratification. Whether that be a job, promotion, salary, living in a home comparable to our parent's current homes. Most people our age are in so much debt because they want it and everything now.
Be a leader of your own life and soak up year 27, 28, and on. Success to you is what you deem it to be, not society. If living by their measures doesn't make you happy. Don't.
Who are "they" anyway? If you have watched So I Married an Axe Murderer, which I think you may have... you'll know that "they" are..
"Stuart: Well, it's a well known fact, Sonny Jim, that there's a secret society of the five wealthiest people in the world, known as The Pentavirate, who run everything in the world, including the newspapers, and meet tri-annually at a secret country mansion in Colorado, known as The Meadows.
Tony: So who's in this Pentavirate?
Stuart Mackenzie: The Queen, The Vatican, The Gettys, The Rothschilds, *and* Colonel Sanders before he went tits up. Oh, I hated the Colonel with is wee *beady* eyes, and that smug look on his face. "Oh, you're gonna buy my chicken! Ohhhhh!"
hugs and lobes girl!
To be honest, I like getting older. Doesn't bother me. I turn 30 in about a month and I'm not bothered by it much. I'm just excited to be into a new decade and moving through life.
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