20 March 2012

Distractions

The sound of keys continues to ping my ears,
The bright lights blind my mind to reality.
I zone out into my commissions, taking with me the sparks of my soul.
The buzz of productivity numbs the pain, what if I never stop?
Will the pain never resurface?

The day is over, I begin my journey to the next distraction
Until it is time to finally travel to my abode and lay my  head,
It feels as if I am in a cloud constantly, the mists constantly pressed against my face,
Reminding me that reality is not but a step away,
And that despite my best efforts reality will not remain away for long.

07 March 2012

40, 000 Miles

Miles fly by faster than any human ever dreamed years ago we could move,
Yet still, still she cannot escape herself.
Thoughts that are so empty, so pained, so hurt.
40, 000 feet in the air can't save her aching heart,
When she lands, it will be there to pick her up again.

The notes envelope her for a moment until the words reach deep within her soul,
Pulling out memories from happier times, times she wishes would return, if only for a moment.
She can almost smell him, feel his touch against her skin,
Feel his lips against her, always so perfectly meshed touching hers.
She aches for his taste, if she tries hard even, she can almost remember it.

The sky a dark black against the grey of her emotions,
Wishing her destination was a time instead of a place,
A place where she is running to forget her life for a moment.
She is jolted from her reverie of memories only to find the day is still the same,
Her life is still as she wishes it weren't.

A Sitting Duck

The sky is dark still, I can see the lights of humanity shine in the distance at this hour.
They show me more than your eyes,
The distance increasing with every word I attempt to use for comfort,
Like that childhood blanket, covering you from all the evils of the world.

I struggle to grasp control of my thoughts,
Emotions swirling – I constantly feel my body go numb,
Always waiting for the hammer to drop – I wait for the pills to kick in.
This compulsive  discrimination to never have unknowns,
Always concrete – yet the grey is a paradox in  my mind.

Eons, it felt like eons and then it all changed.
A split second and the world’s colours were no longer true to my memories. 
The bricks began to crumble, slowly as if to not engage my attention. 
Until it was too late, the wall was torn down.
And now – now there is no chance to build up again before I am seen.

I sit here enveloped in familiar sights and sounds,
The edge begins to finally dull, the  strong glare no more.
The cacophony ebbs away into the darker corners of my mind. 
Intense cravings for silence in matters of the heart,
I begin to cave inward as always and start to tremor.

A skittering deer in the headlights, my heart aches with the uncertainty.
For I know that I cannot, will not settle for silver,
I must grab the reins again, and allow myself to breath once more.
Only then will I be able to accept my vulnerability when he looks upon me.

22 February 2012

The Whine of the Dog

The Whine of the Lost Dog

The whining started as I left work,
The sound was so intense I began to jerk.
I looked around to see what was the matter,
And saw a small dog whose collar was in tatters.

He was scruffy and black, 
And had a silver tag that said Jack.
His nose was so dried up,
That I felt for this pup.

I made to go near,
And he startled in fear,
But with a voice so smooth,
He accepted my move.

I whistled to Jack and opened the car,
And he settled in as if it were par.
I smiled and let out a sigh,
I now had a companion and was feeling so high.

When all of a sudden, I snapped out of the bog,
And realized I had stolen this cute lil' dog.
I now was a thief, a cretin and a liar,
And hope life is prison is not quite so dire.

31 January 2011

A Magical Pen



Funny this left kin-da girl
In the sens-i-cal nonsense of non-politics
Ya see, this girl, she was a number
A logical number of sorts
One day the girl in all her silliness
Well she picked up a ….. pen!
And it was a damn nice pen too, if I do say so myself
And so she drew and drew and drew
And sung her songs to herself
As her numbers turned to pictures
That started a story that could very well and did indeed turn a leaf
Which sparked a charge that changed her world.

And there you have it,
The power of a glorious pen!


24 January 2011

Goodbye lil music blog, but bon apetite!


So I have decided to shut down my music blog at alilworldofsongs.blogspot.com.  I don’t enjoy writing about music separately from this blog.  I just want to include that which I love more than almost anything in this blog.

I am however, starting a side blog to share what I learn on my journey of clean eating.  I have been reading a lot and it really has started to transform me after only 3 weeks.  I am not on a diet; I just eat clean which I will explain more in my new blog at credibleandedible.blogspot.com

I am really excited about this year and eating properly is a big part of that, I also love to cook so very much so and will be talking about that and hopefully sharing with everyone the new things and ideas and foods I try J

Hopefully you will share back too!

Thanks for reading, my all of loyal 2 readers – you two give me a reason to keep writing sometimes – cheers!! =)


21 January 2011

Digi-Life



I am watching Frontline’s ‘Digital Nation’ and it has got me to think about the digital world, social media, multi-tasking, living in 2011 and beyond.  It is said that we are losing ourselves to technology, losing our humanity to the virtual world.  And in some ways, sure we are.  But perhaps this is evolution of the human mind, growth.  Humankind has been changing our history of being on this planet, and it will continue to do so.  (And let’s remember this is nowhere near the first change of this scope.  I am sure the change from Hieroglyphics to writing caused this same sort of OH NO IT WILL RUIN us mentality. And yes I am sure we lost part of something we had before as well, but look what we gained instead? The beginnings of modern language.)

Now don’t get me wrong, I think we need to watch that we don’t live in the virtual world in extremes but this is like anything, one glass of red wine is good for your heart, 10, not so much.

However, when the world has changed so much, and let’s face it, it will never return to a time without technology, without the internet, we are past the point of no return.  However, it does not have to be doom and gloom, in fact, we need to embrace it, learn to use it, and then to create.

For example, many educational institutions believe technology is ruining our children and adolescents and some ways it is but I believe it is because we have not yet learned to harness the technology to teach our next generations.  We need to change how education is delivered, both the content, the message and the way in which it is taught.  Whether we like it or not, the next generations are a connected generation and it is our fault.  They are brought up in a world they did not create watching us attached to our devices of all sorts, TV’s, computers, phones, etc. etc. etc.  I am just as guilty; in fact I am streaming a documentary, monitoring Twitter and email while writing a blog post.

There are statistics that show students are arriving at university with writing skills that lack sufficient skill to get through university, ok, then why did they pass the previous grades and courses, especially in high school? If teachers are so concerned, perhaps these students should be held back.

The world has changed and I don’t believe for the worst.  We are free more than ever to create, the tools at hand are numerous and plenty.  The types of ideas that come out are amazing. 

I heard a quote at a work conference last week on Social Media with guest speaker Neil Bearse.  He mentioned a quote:

“In the last 48 hours, more information has been created than since the beginning of time to 2003.” – Eric Scmidt, 2003, Techcrunch

I think education still needs to teach how to write properly and the correct grammar usage, reading, physical education – this traditional education doesn’t need to disappear but what we need to combine the two types of education; digital and social media WITH traditional education.

Kids today are pretty much born with wires coming out of their ears; my 2-year nephew knows to use technological devices.  I have two other nephews, one almost 4 and the other 2.5 who both have flat screen TV’s mounted on their wall.  Their parents have two as well.  There is a Wii and a PS3 there as well, they see their parents with laptops, smartphones and constantly near them.  And this is the norm in today’s western societies of plenty and instant gratification.

Then we send them to school and expect them not to still need that stimulation? Do you not think children would learn so much better with tools that are familiar to them?  It is not that they won’t read but maybe instead of a traditional paper book one would read an e-reader? 

We can use social media to create study type groups and use it to get the students to share information and ideas.  We can have them do their assignments online, using blogs to share ideas or similar such technology.  We can have them use game type apps to learn languages, grammar, and writing.

As for the distraction argument, yes it is valid.  But there are ways around this, why are kids making the rules, teachers and parents should.  Boundaries and guidelines around these technologies need to be taught from a young age.  And if kids really don’t want to learn, they will find other things to be distracted with regardless. 

We need to teach kids how to find information and get the right message, how to use that information correctly and how to present this information to others, so this includes proper writing skills.

I subscribe to numerous podcasts that teach me new concepts in my field of work, why not do it in education.

I subscribe to an Excel podcast that goes into depth about formulas and macros and the more intermediate levels of concepts I don’t have many in person tools to utilize.  I subscribe to iTunes University lectures from actual universities, we can use blogs and twitter to follow news.  I wake up, and before I even get out of bed and into the shower, I have read the Discovery News, BBC News and Thomas Reuter news and also checked on my Twitter feed in which I follow business professionals, news outlets, music feeds (artists, PR reps, radio station, music journalists) and friends.  I find out breaking news on Twitter faster than waiting till the next morning paper comes to the store.

I am not discounting reading the traditional means, I LOVE a good paper book, trade paperback if I have my way even.  But technology can help us learn, and create and give us the time to do it all in 15-20 minutes before I shower.  I am on top of the world news, my profession and my friends.

Just my two cents on a Friday morning about technology and the response this documentary drew from me.